“A Lesson Learned”
“I,” a child of God, saved and repented of all my sins,
Learning and
testifying of what God has done for me,
Seeking and
praying for God’s will in my life,
Doing the
best I can to stand strong, and grounded in the word of God,
Trying to
lead myself in the way I know best, trying to be righteous,
Praying for
the things I desire to come to pass.
“Me,” a child of God, struggling also with all my strength and all my might,
Trying to
climb higher and higher each day, up and up I go,
Fighting all
which did not satisfy this soul of mine.
Trials and
storms I did go through, and yes, my Lord was on all sides.
What I so
wanted for God to do for me,
I stood up in
faith and determination,
I pushed and
pressed so that it might come closer.
Anxiety
filled my heart, as desire became my God.
I found
myself slipping farther away from God’s presence,
Into a place
of torment and fear, closer to my desire,
But far from
God’s holiness.
Yes, “Me,”
a child of God fell, not because of Jesus, but Because of my own selfishness,
to use God for my own satisfaction.
All my
strength faded away, all might that I had was no more,
Effortless
and careless, I had given up.
‘Why? Was the
question.” Because I myself made the effort,
“I” became my own strength and might.
I climbed not
closer to God, but closer to what I preferred,
So all that
seemed to be happening for me died!
Now I was
giving birth to a new life, while those around me were hurt and disappointed.
What “I”
had expected to bring joy, quickly was gone,
The pain and
agony I felt, going through the loss of all those years, Who I was being molded
to be, was given up,
Anger and
shame quickly showed on my countenance.
“I,” who from the beginning did it all, blamed God,
Simply giving
up on who I so wanted to be.
It was that
sinner, who from the beginning Jesus saved, and it was that sinner,
For whom
God’s grace was sufficient.
“He,” Then was with me all the way and was able to move in my life.
He opened
doors and became the healer of a broken heart,
And a
counselor for my life.
It was then
when I saw God’s love for me, greater than ever, and it was then that I learned
of God’s love,
A God of
strength, a God of might and power.
Lowly humbled
was I and weak, but God was made powerful and strong for me.
He now does
for me as is His will and purpose,
He had
planned for me from the beginning.
The promise
He has made to me will never be broken.
Nothing can
compare to the love of God,
I can do nothing to win that love or cause Him to do something for me.
To really
know God is a gift and truly His love is freely given.
He now is the
Savior of my soul, my life and my desires!
Wrote in year 2000
