A Lesson Learned

“A Lesson Learned”

“I,” a child of God, saved and repented of all my sins,

Learning and testifying of what God has done for me,

Seeking and praying for God’s will in my life,

Doing the best I can to stand strong, and grounded in the word of God,

Trying to lead myself in the way I know best, trying to be righteous,

Praying for the things I desire to come to pass.

“Me,” a child of God, struggling also with all my strength and all my might,

Trying to climb higher and higher each day, up and up I go,

Fighting all which did not satisfy this soul of mine.

Trials and storms I did go through, and yes, my Lord was on all sides.

What I so wanted for God to do for me,

I stood up in faith and determination,

I pushed and pressed so that it might come closer.

Anxiety filled my heart, as desire became my God.

I found myself slipping farther away from God’s presence,

Into a place of torment and fear, closer to my desire,

But far from God’s holiness.

Yes, “Me,” a child of God fell, not because of Jesus, but Because of my own selfishness, to use God for my own satisfaction.

All my strength faded away, all might that I had was no more,

Effortless and careless, I had given up.

‘Why? Was the question.” Because I myself made the effort,

“I” became my own strength and might.

I climbed not closer to God, but closer to what I preferred,

So all that seemed to be happening for me died!

Now I was giving birth to a new life, while those around me were hurt and disappointed.

What “I” had expected to bring joy, quickly was gone,

The pain and agony I felt, going through the loss of all those years, Who I was being molded to be, was given up,

Anger and shame quickly showed on my countenance.

“I,” who from the beginning did it all, blamed God,

Simply giving up on who I so wanted to be.

It was that sinner, who from the beginning Jesus saved, and it was that sinner,

For whom God’s grace was sufficient.

“He,” Then was with me all the way and was able to move in my life.

He opened doors and became the healer of a broken heart,

And a counselor for my life.

It was then when I saw God’s love for me, greater than ever, and it was then that I learned of God’s love,

A God of strength, a God of might and power.

Lowly humbled was I and weak, but God was made powerful and strong for me.

He now does for me as is His will and purpose,

He had planned for me from the beginning.

The promise He has made to me will never be broken.

Nothing can compare to the love of God,
I can do nothing to win that love or cause Him to do something for me.

To really know God is a gift and truly His love is freely given.

He now is the Savior of my soul, my life and my desires!

Wrote in year 2000