To Begin

Since I was sixteen I have been writing testimonies, poems,songs, and thoughts down here and there and I thought maybe I can share them with others. I am saved by grace and I am here now sharing my story through the things I have took note over my past journeys. The experiences I share with you about me are to enlighten, encourage, and speak to ones heart for I want what I share to be for you to the Glory of God and not about me.

To Begin in testimony written in 1997 the year I gave birth to my first daughter, a year of repentance, salvation, healing, blessing and joy.

                                                                                   His Mercy On Me

 As a child, youngest of eight children

With two christian parents involved in church 

 I was not rich but well taken care of.

Also was I taught of Jesus and the word of God.

I loved Jesus and my family.

God had given me a blessed family and home.

 In my teens, young and curious I was,

 I met several friends and was approached to sin, as I should say, knowing all my life good from bad. Slowly the devil crept in and stole it all.

I was young and anxious to do everything, totally leaving God out and being very rebellious to my parents and most of all the Lord of my life.

Mischief and lies filled my heart and pleasures of the world filled my eyes.

Approaching fifteen I felt myself still looking for more.

 I would lay on my bed tossing and turning at night; ambition filled my heart and the Lord in my prayers.

 I always had a bible and I would often read it, for I never denied there was a God, but I did deny his law and commandments.

 As I read out loud to myself, and those around me that believed the same way I did; I still felt myself rebellion worse and wanting something else.

 Sin had a hold of me and I was the devils servant to sin.

My eyes couldn’t see and lust of the flesh was leading my life.

 I always remembered in my heart of Jesus and what was real, but still was I a slave in chains to Satan.

 Meanwhile, I was grasping hold of every sin; with no care of whom I was hurting, and those friends who taught me well of sin and lies.

Looking for love in all the wrong places was I.

 I did everything a teen would possibly do.

 My spirit and soul was filthy, dirty and so very lost.

Furthermore, I got pregnant, and feelings of loneliness overwhelmed me

Here I was very unhappy now

 My Momma was on my mind; she was very sick with cancer and I wanted so much to be with her; as in the days having past.

Finally, home I was again, grounded from my sinful ways, but still in my heart remain the desires and lust of  those ways.

“Blind I was”

But with prayers, mercy, love and the mighty hand of Christ Jesus he swept conviction over me.

Three months pregnant and hopeless.

I saw a light turn on; as the hopeless turn to hope, darkness turn to light, and the emptiness turn to joy-unspeakable

I had gave my life to Jesus

 I finally had satisfaction and peace within

With my eyes wide open I could see the love of Jesus and the desires to serve him.

That day I had given Jesus my heart, soul, and might.

Through trials, test, and temptation, I could always feel him pick me up in his arms, hug me and give me the strength to carry on my journey with Him.

For soon he’s coming back and I am going home with my Lord Jesus Christ.

 I love him and thank him for His mercy on me

“They overcame the enemy by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony.” Revelation 12:11